when will this world make sense to me?

when can i climb out of this rabbit hole?
when will i be enough?
when will my lifestyle be acceptable?
when will the world stop screaming for me to change?
when will you love me?
when will you let me love you?

i have got to find a way to escape this place.
this world.
so tolerable, and so tolerated, so overrated, and so under paid.
indistinguishable.
indistinguishable mess, i am.

i have got to get away from here, but the water keeps pulling me closer.
under.
under.
under.

i can't breathe.